|I was packing during the Met Gala —by Juleskills via Flickr|
job. For a series of reasons, I’ve chosen to leave New York.
Like many twenty-somethings, my goals have shifted drastically throughout my post-college years. I have
always been very strategic. I knew that after college I was going to work inNew York. I interned here during college summers, and applied to literally hundreds of jobs after graduation. I was determined to live and breathe the city.
living at home with the goal of moving to Manhattan. I found a perfect apartment on the Upper East Side and at the cost of living two hours away from my boyfriend of 5 years, I began to reap the benefits of living independently in the covetable city of New York.
|Who wouldn’t want to live near Central Park?|
I was exhausted from all of my life planning, (I had made it to my goal, hadn’t I?), and took a break from thinking. If you had asked me anytime in the past seven months what I planned to do in June when my lease ended, I would have changed the subject.
I have forgotten what bored feels like. I have seldom gone straight home after work because there is always
something fun to do, like walking the reservoir at Central Park, going to an author talk, or having tea or happy hour drinks with friends. I’m really going to miss having too many options. I look forward to maybe getting enough sleep at night, though, and not having to deal with the lack of #4 and #5 trains on weekends.
I haven’t saved much money, and I’ve reduced my student loan payments to the bare minimum. The weight I would have gained from constantly eating out and drinking has thankfully been equalized by all the walking I do, avoiding cabs and the subway to cut expenses. Living this fast and hard life has left me totally unbalanced. I’m looking forward to riding my bike to the beach again, and truly feeling outside.
This Sex and the City quote about happiness doesn’t factor in how each side is weighted. In New York, you struggle to have it all without feeling distressed, or spread too thin.
|I find it difficult to have it all in New York —by perry_marco via Flickr|
For me, I have nowhere close to ‘it all’ and I can barely get through a day without feeling frantic, overwhelmed, broke, lonely, stifled, and under-challenged at my job. But, I see a light at the end of the tunnel as June approaches. Perhaps, what many of my thirty-something work friends say will happen, “New York might not be right for you at this time in your life, but it doesn’t mean you won’t move back.”